the mask we wear… November 20, 2008

Why is it that sometimes we build up walls around us? We give the world this shield, that nothing can penetrate , we are fast to defend ourselves and act like everything is always so perfect with us.

But inside we are just as broken as the rest or more, we are as vulnerable as them or more. We are bleeding and crying yet no one can hear us because our walls are too thick.

We wake up everyday and put on the same mask, practice our lines and walk out the door and begin the show. One more day, one more night acting in this play that is called life.

Then one day the unexpected happen you meet someone that brings your walls down, makes you realize that  being vulnerable is fine, that sheding tears is of humans and that to get hurt is part of life, they teach us that we dont always have to be perfect that imperfection is beauty.

We stand in front of the mirror, take off the make up, take off the mask, throw our lines away and bring the curtains down. The show is now over.

Our life has just begun.

just because November 20, 2008

you walked away, didnt even bother to say “goodbye”

took all the time we shared , all the love , trust and friendship and burned it.

you walked away with no explanations, no reasons, no answers….

no answers to my questions…..why?

now you come back but just like the song says  its too late to apologize

i forgive you , but i also forgot about you

you’re part of my history, part of my past , just a memory in the back of my mind.

i dont hold anything against you , i instead thank you….

Thank you opening my eyes and allowing me to see who you really are

if you wouldnt have walked away ,i wouldve probably still be there …blind and with a stranger

so thank you again, for teaching me a new lesson about life, friendship,love,relationships…etc

but now you try to come back and pick up were we left

well i have some updates for you…”we” dont exist anymore now is you and is me

pick up? you only pick up something that you left and you know it still there, well you did leave something but now there’s nothing..

i wish you the best now please go back the same way you came..

for i already moved on and like i said before you only exist in my memories ..

in the old pictures , the old videos that i still keep, so after i finish telling the story, i can show them and say “this is him..the liar….the traitor”

Being Single and Looking!! So hard! November 14, 2008

Most of my friends are single and looking, and I am in the same position.

And OMG! It is hard to find someone!! Is not that we are ugly at all…guys always check us out , they come and invite us to dance whatever..but is just that is not the right guys, not the type of guys we want.

Sometimes i wonder , could it be that i am asking for too much? But then i realized nah, i deserve much.

I might sound very selfish and in love with myself but i know how much i am  worth and so do my friends that we just are not willing to settle to anything that comes our way. Is either you have what i want or bye bye.

I don’t know where else to go to find this type of guys?! is really hard..

i know that me and my friends are not looking for the perfect/impossible guy , so then why is it so hard?!

Sometimes i feel i have all the wrong guys after me. Like they’re the opposite to what i’m looking for and  i am like fine let me give him a chance , and then i am like eww! i have tried and i just can’t click with them. it doesnt work, and theyre really nice guys, just that not for me.

Is it hard for you to find what you’re looking for?

When your own friends don’t believe in you…. November 13, 2008

I have, great friends who are like family to me. I honestly love them and wouldn’t change them, but  i have notice they don’t believe in me, which is kind of sad.

So i have learn to not share my dream with dream-killers.  Is not that i am like those type of ppl that always say they gonna do something but they never do.

Actually my goal in life is to try to achieve as many of my dreams as i can. Of course i cant do this , without the help of God, the giver of every dream that is in everyone heart. I heard once that every dream we have is cause God has place it there.

No dream is impossible.

I believe in dreams, i believe they can become a reality. I believe you can be whatever you wanna be , do whatever you wanna do as long as you let God be your God and always remain humble and remember where you came from , who brought you here and thank those who deserve it.

At this moment right now i have a long list of things to do..longer than my list of what i already did lol. But i have faith that i will accomplish great things contrary to what people think.

I know that one day all those people who doubted in me, i will prove them wrong. I have learned, sometimes the hard way to never underestimate someone you never know who you have next to you.

People’s opinion about myself don’t really matter, is the opinions i have about me that matters.

So to those who believe, reach for the highest star even if you don’t make it at least you know you try.

And those that dont believe, close your eyes and believe again.

“Dream no small dreams for they have no power to move the hearts of men.”

whats gonna happen with immigration? November 12, 2008

Now that Obama is our new president…my question is whats gonna happen to all this people who don’t have a voice in this country? The people that are cleaning your houses? the people that are cutting your grass? the people that take the jobs no one wants? the students who didn’t ask to come here and now cant go to college?

You know i believe is really unfair to not give this people some kind of protection. There’s so many young people out there that came here when they were 10 or younger or maybe older because their parents brought them here trying to escape the hunger , the poverty, the crime etc of their country. You know what they didn’t ask to come here!

This people came here seeking the AMERICAN DREAM..and this dream has become their worst enemy. Not being able to go to college eve if they have the best GPA in their school. Not being able to work because they don’t have a SS. Not being able to leave the country to see their dying father,brother,son, or grandparent  because if they leave they cant come back to the life they already started here.

This is so unfair, there’s so many talented people that are not  able to give back to this country that once opened its doors  because that same country its closing its doors now and refuses to treat them equally.

Young people with great dreams. What are we gonna do?  Are we are gonna denied their dreams like Bush did.

Obama you did it, now this people wanna do it too.

Together this people are believing for HOPE,

Hope for a better future, Hope to go to college, Hope to go out without been caught.

“Liberty and Justice for all”???? This is what we are denying to them. Liberty and Justice.

I hope for a change!

I want some kind of law that will allow this people to believe, to dream and to achieve.

“I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: “We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal.”-Martin Luther King

I’m Sorry November 11, 2008

I know you never going to read this, but just in case you do.

I am sorry i hurt you, sorry that i broke your heart.

Sorry i betrayed you. I hurt you like no one.

I was your John “the beloved”, yet i became your Judah “the traitor”.

i stabbed you face to face then ran away because i was too afraid to see you in the eyes.

You believed in me, you loved me and trusted me and i took all of that and burn it with my selfish desires.

Yet you came after me and offered  me another chance , i said “OK”  you believed me, 2 days later i was gone with no explanations, not even a goodbye letter or a way of reaching me.

Yesterday i saw you passing by, my heart stopped , my breath became cold..the past, the present and the future became one. I saw you and i prayed that you didn’t see me , you walked away unaware i was there and i whisper “i am sorry”.

It was never your fault, it was always me. I’m sorry but i had to leave, you deserve better than me.

“She said , He said” November 11, 2008

Opinions….Opinions…..

Everyone once in their lives should stop listening to what people think and do what you think.

The whole world is full of different opinions yet there is two type of people…1. the ones that have their own opinion and the 2. the ones that they let others think for themselves.

Who are you? 1 or 2?

I am 1 sometimes 2.

Obama! November 11, 2008

There’s an Obama fever going on! And i have it to.:)

I proudly want to let everyone know that YES WE DID! we won!!

i am very happy with the results, and i am expecting much for the next 4 years!

-CHANGE IS COMING…2009-

I love Obama!!

How many risks have you taken? November 11, 2008

In the past months, i have personally made decisions that have affected my life, my present and my future.

I have taken risks that will make me.

i risked all, and by doing that i almost lost it all.

I dont know how far my decisions will take me.

But one thing i know for sure, the future , tomorrow looks brighter on the other side, there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel.

Not everything is lost, and  nothing is finish yet. My book is still open , the pages are being still written on. 19 chapters so far and many more to go.

Hope is alive everyone.

Is not about the things we see now, is about faith. Believing everything will be fine. Knowing you’re alive and that there is always the chance for a new start, but most importantly knowing that someone from above is watching and helping you and always there when you are in need.

Hello world! November 11, 2008

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